I’m going through something.<\/p>\n
I thought it was my car.\u00c2\u00a0 Or my hearing.\u00c2\u00a0 Two ongoing troublesome areas.\u00c2\u00a0 But my shrink told me I was focusing on these two subjects because I could control them, there was an answer, that it was the outside that was scaring me, what was happening in my regular life, the exposure was frightening me, the expanding reach of my work and the attendant interactions.\u00c2\u00a0 I wanted to tell him about the bad, but he was more concerned with the good.\u00c2\u00a0 And I’ve kept this in mind.\u00c2\u00a0 As I’ve teetered on the edge.<\/p>\n
Suddenly, my old life has come back to haunt me.\u00c2\u00a0 In my dreams.<\/p>\n
I was on top of my law school girlfriend three nights back.\u00c2\u00a0 She was there with her husband and kids, but she had her top off, I was complimenting her on her breasts.\u00c2\u00a0 But then my ex-wife appeared.\u00c2\u00a0 To trash this old girlfriend.\u00c2\u00a0 She always thought I liked her better.<\/p>\n
Then Kim made a reappearance the night before last.\u00c2\u00a0 Adam Sandler had borrowed my BMW, I was pissed that my little sister had lent it to him, I called her on the cell after I couldn’t get ahold of anybody else.\u00c2\u00a0 She answered whimsically.\u00c2\u00a0 There was no connection.\u00c2\u00a0 When I got off I felt like shit.\u00c2\u00a0 The shrink focused on Adam Sandler’s role.\u00c2\u00a0 Under the rubric of everybody in your dream being a reflection of yourself I guess.\u00c2\u00a0 But still, I was creeped out by the appearance of my ex.<\/p>\n
And then there she was again.\u00c2\u00a0 Just now.\u00c2\u00a0 I was speaking at some local event and bumped into her.\u00c2\u00a0 I was acting cool.\u00c2\u00a0 I wanted to go deeper, but I didn’t think it was appropriate.\u00c2\u00a0 At least that’s what I told Tony Wilson.\u00c2\u00a0 When I ran into him by my apartment building.\u00c2\u00a0 He was staying in a hotel right next door.\u00c2\u00a0 We sat down at the wrought iron table outside.\u00c2\u00a0 And when Tony asked me what had transpired and I gave him so few details, so little information, and it seemed he was disappointed, I quoted the Marc Cohn song.\u00c2\u00a0 I told him he knew me.\u00c2\u00a0 That I hadn’t blinked.\u00c2\u00a0 It was the situation.\u00c2\u00a0 Because, as Marc sings, I want to dig down deep.<\/p>\n
And then I woke up.<\/p>\n
And it was so strange.\u00c2\u00a0 Since Tony Wilson’s supposed to be coming to L.A.\u00c2\u00a0 And he knows my life story.\u00c2\u00a0 And I know his.\u00c2\u00a0 It seemed real.\u00c2\u00a0 But it was a dream.\u00c2\u00a0 But I kept singing "Dig Down Deep" in my head.<\/p>\n
Baby let’s go below the surface Last Sunday night at the Kodak Theatre I asked Brad Goodman how he became Ian Anderson’s agent.\u00c2\u00a0 Since he obviously wasn’t old enough to have been around at the beginning.<\/p>\n Brad threw it to Ian’s wife, standing at the edge of the dressing room.\u00c2\u00a0 And after hearing about the demise of Premier Talent, I asked her how she met Ian.\u00c2\u00a0 And after hearing about the connection, and the rendezvous, after asking three questions, I posited one more.\u00c2\u00a0 And she quickly exclaimed "AND YOU ARE?"<\/p>\n I cringed.\u00c2\u00a0 I wanted to be anywhere but there.\u00c2\u00a0 I find people’s stories more interesting than any music.\u00c2\u00a0 I was just interested.\u00c2\u00a0 Especially since marrying a rock star…well, let’s just say to many it’s a dream.\u00c2\u00a0 You see I like to dig down deep.\u00c2\u00a0 Get the real story.\u00c2\u00a0 The true story.\u00c2\u00a0 And in this case I don’t know if she felt I was going to write something revealing or if it was English reticence or…<\/p>\n At this point Marc Cohn is famous for being shot.<\/p>\n Before that he was known for "Walking In Memphis".\u00c2\u00a0 A one hit wonder.\u00c2\u00a0 But this isn’t fair.\u00c2\u00a0 Marc’s debut album, released by Atlantic in 1991, isn’t quite a masterpiece, but it touches my soul.<\/p>\n The best track is the very last.\u00c2\u00a0 "True Companion".<\/p>\n Baby I’ve been searching like everybody else All the celebrities on TV are perfect.\u00c2\u00a0 All the movie stars are cool.\u00c2\u00a0 Nobody looks or acts like me.\u00c2\u00a0 Uptight sometimes, yet the straw that stirs the drink at others.\u00c2\u00a0 There’s nobody confused.\u00c2\u00a0 Everybody’s got it wired.\u00c2\u00a0 I don’t have it wired.\u00c2\u00a0 I tend to flail.\u00c2\u00a0 The only thing that resonates is music.\u00c2\u00a0 Songs like "True Companion".<\/p>\n But the song that truly touches my soul on Marc Cohn’s debut is "Dig Down Deep".<\/p>\n Last night at Village Books a relationship guru touted her new rules-oriented book.\u00c2\u00a0 She said women should not reveal themselves.\u00c2\u00a0 They should just elicit the personality and stories of their suitor.<\/p>\n I’d hate a woman like that.\u00c2\u00a0 If I can’t get your story, I don’t want to be with you.\u00c2\u00a0 Actually, what I like best is that night early in the relationship when we stay up all night and reveal our stories to each other.\u00c2\u00a0 That’s when you bond.<\/p>\n And I don’t wanna wait until tomorrow I don’t want to be reasonable.\u00c2\u00a0 I don’t want to play by the rules.\u00c2\u00a0 I don’t care if there’s work tomorrow.\u00c2\u00a0 If we’re feeling it, if we’re connecting, if we’re bonding, we’ve got to continue to go for it.\u00c2\u00a0 Even if it takes all night.<\/p>\n It’s a feeling in your heart Tell me about your victories.\u00c2\u00a0 Your losses.\u00c2\u00a0 I never felt closer to Felice than two Fridays ago, after disconnection in the jacuzzi, sitting on the edge of the bed at way past three in the morning she told me the story of the fifth grade teacher who marked her down on her map because she believed she had traced it, hadn’t done it all by herself, but with help.\u00c2\u00a0 She’d spent HOURS on this drawing.\u00c2\u00a0 She was proud of it.\u00c2\u00a0 And not only had she not gotten kudos, she’d been PUT DOWN!\u00c2\u00a0 It had changed her life.<\/p>\n Oh I know those moments.\u00c2\u00a0 When you give it your best.\u00c2\u00a0 And you’re tingling inside, waiting for the response, and you’re put down and brushed off.\u00c2\u00a0 It shaves off a little bit of your soul.<\/p>\n Don’t give me a record that’s written by committee.\u00c2\u00a0 Don’t give me one that Clive Davis has rewritten.\u00c2\u00a0 Give me a composition straight from your soul.\u00c2\u00a0 Then I can resonate.\u00c2\u00a0 And it’s this resonance that is the foundation of this business.\u00c2\u00a0 Oh, there’s ongoing commerce.\u00c2\u00a0 Tunes are needed for background at restaurants, and for commercials.\u00c2\u00a0 But those slide right off of you.\u00c2\u00a0 They just don’t capture life experience.\u00c2\u00a0 And when done right, that’s what music does best.<\/p>\n I don’t want to go up to the mountain I’m looking forward to going to Colorado.\u00c2\u00a0 I like hiking up in Will Rogers Park.\u00c2\u00a0 But it’s the trips in my head that are the most fulfilling.<\/p>\n I’m gonna e-mail this to you now and then drive up to Brentwood to the shrink’s office to try and figure this latest installment of my nocturnal life out.\u00c2\u00a0 We’re gonna dig down deep.<\/p>\n <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I’m going through something. 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See what we can find<\/em><\/p>\n
Can’t say nothing different about myself
Sometimes I’m an angel
And sometimes I’m cruel
And when it comes to love
I’m just another fool<\/em><\/p>\n
‘Cause the fortune said that ‘The time is now’
It’s time to find out what we’re doing
What we’re doing anyhow
Let’s go out in the moonlight
And walk for awhile
Maybe stay up all night and we could
Talk for awhile<\/em><\/p>\n
And a lump in the throat
It’s a strange and lovely ride
Wanna dig down deep inside<\/em><\/p>\n
I don’t need to go down to the sea
Gonna sit right here ’till we unravel
The mystery<\/em><\/p>\n